Matt has been travelling a crazy amount for work lately (actually for about 10 months). He is gone at least 50% of his time and we all hate it.
We all long to move so that we can have him home everynight. Hopefully in the future it will happen. But, for right now we are left trying to make the best of this situation
I will never get used to the day Matt leaves. It just plain sucks.....we all kind of feel just plain depressed as the weeks ahead with him gone, look unbearable.
But, somehow I pick myself up....dust myself off and we make the best of the situation.
We go one with our life. Talking to Matt as much as we can. Skyping with Matt as much as we can. Alyssa really needs time with Matt so she will often take the phone or the computer up into her room at night so she can just talk to Daddy alone. They can be on the phone or Skype for a long time. I asked Matt once what they talk about and he says he just tells her stories; either pretend stories or stories from when he was a little boy.
I find the hardest time of the day to be suppertime. That is when Matt should be getting home and the mood in our house always changes. From tired, worn out mom to Yeah...Daddy is home. I find that I often try to get us out of the house at that time of day. Whether it is to the park for a picnic supper, or to Kidz Quarterz to let the kids run wild. We seem to eat out more when Matt is gone because I just plain don't want to be home at that time of day.
So we somehow make it through the week and then the weekend comes. I hate Friday nights when Matt is gone because the weekend just looms before us. Everyone seems to be so excited that the weekend is here but to me it just feels so empty. We get through it though.
Then the countdown starts for when Daddy will be home and the mood starts to shift to Pure Excitement. Days are counted down. Clothes are picked out by Alyssa for what she wants to wear when Daddy is home. Pictures are drawn and colored for Daddy.
Then Daddy comes home......and all is right in our little world again. He completes our family and having him home just feels so right.
As much as I complain about how hard it is to have your husband away, I know that Matt is suffering just the safe; if not more. He too is worn down from all this travel. He just longs to be home with us in the evenings and weekends.
I know that this travel season is just that; a....season. We will get through it. We know that this is NOT how we want to raise our kids. We NEED to be together. So until this short season is over we will work on thriving as a family instead of just surviving. And we are doing it....we are really doing are best to make the best out of this situation.
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